OH! The Horror!
Acrylic paint on canvas board. This was made during a sad and confusing time in my life, dealing with abandonment and loneliness. I wanted to crawl out of my own skin, I was actively rejecting myself too. This painting reminds me of the muffled screams into the pillow, that I wished to bellow out in the middle of nowhere. But in reality I wanted to be silent, as to not affect others. I wanted to create chaos that was filling me up, but still too raw to be that vulnerable with myself and others. I like to paint scary/creepy/uncanny things. The involuntary reaction to such horrors is interesting. I like drawing things that scare me or unsettles me. I think to have a drawing influence your emotions and to speak to you without any words, I find fascinating.(With moderation, it can get overwhelming) My nephew also loved this painting of mine and hopes to paint like me one day, so that felt like the payoff I needed after such a pain...