SAD Clown Time Traveler

 This was a painting i did right after moving into my uncles place. A very reflective and confusing time for me. Restarting my life in a sense, and it made me reflect on my childhood self. during my move i discovered a lot of stickers from my childhood in the early 2000's. The clown girl (made of acrylic and water color on water color paper cut out) represents a lot of us who wish to get older to gain autonomy and independence. But not realizing the exchange we make for adulthood, the death of our child selves. 

        I  think a lot of us reflect on our childhoods and hopefully looking back on how much we have grown, but i also wonder how i could make that child version of me happy. she still exists in mine and others memories, i felt she was so authentic and loved to be creative in any and every way. She enjoyed using her imagination to the fullest an could entertain herself easily with whatever is around. 

   The jewel stickers are 3D, and I've had them saved for 'the right time' for maybe two decades, the confetti i glued on was also saved for a greater purpose for maybe a decade. There is a thin line between finding most things can be made into art and hoarding. I make sure to listen to my loved ones if they think it is getting out of hand- my rule is i need to visualize that project for said item and be excited for it, in order to keep the item.

The pointed hat has a pompom i made out of yarn, and this is all glued and varnished on a wooden canvas. This painting just takes me back to that time- feeling lost but trying to stay hopeful with trying to fall back in love with the idea of living my life truly the way i desire. Thank you for time traveling with me. 

Created November of 2023