Art of Chlover

 Self Portrait - Me Time I don't like to make marijuana my whole personality and have truly used it more medicinally than recreationally. But when i worked full time in customer service, I looked forward to going home to cuddle with my dog, Yoda, but I also very much looked forward to smoking when i got home. Being able to find calmness in life is a skill we don't really think about, but if you cannot find the means to calm/relax yourself, I find its detrimental. These days I am not smoking as much as I used to, when I thought I could smoke like Snoop Dogg, but i still gravitate it as a medicine. Luckily I have more coping skills as to not rely so heavily on this medicine anymore. But I cannot deny the reality of how much it has impacted my life. My mom believes I wouldn't be here today if I didn't have this plant to treat both my mood, but my horrible migraines. I am so thankful my mom sympathized with my pain and saw the true benefits it held for me. It is sad that it...

  pencil on sketchbook paper     I would like to paint this sometime soon. Not much to say, I think it is sick looking and I think it could be a cool tattoo. 

                                                                   Acrylic paint on canvas board      I have very low energy and get drained from a lot of small things. I have found more medical answers since when i painted this, so it brings me back to this confusing time of not knowing or understanding what is 'wrong' with me. It feels like my energy deflates into a more unsettling version of myself. Sometimes feeling like my kindness and warmth is just a mask for when my patience is running thin, that's when the true me comes out. But I know I never resonate or feel good after my snappy low energy mood. This illustrates the moment i am needing to take a full mental and physical break and to just smoke and exist.  I also think about my soul within my meat suit. I feel ...