Me time - A Self Portrait


 Self Portrait - Me Time

I don't like to make marijuana my whole personality and have truly used it more medicinally than recreationally. But when i worked full time in customer service, I looked forward to going home to cuddle with my dog, Yoda, but I also very much looked forward to smoking when i got home. Being able to find calmness in life is a skill we don't really think about, but if you cannot find the means to calm/relax yourself, I find its detrimental. These days I am not smoking as much as I used to, when I thought I could smoke like Snoop Dogg, but i still gravitate it as a medicine. Luckily I have more coping skills as to not rely so heavily on this medicine anymore. But I cannot deny the reality of how much it has impacted my life. My mom believes I wouldn't be here today if I didn't have this plant to treat both my mood, but my horrible migraines. I am so thankful my mom sympathized with my pain and saw the true benefits it held for me. It is sad that it is looked so down upon and judged. I cannot drink alcohol without feeling incredibly nauseous and/or vomiting, from the smallest portions too. All this to say, pick your poison. We all need rest and i think with anything there should be moderation. I am thankful I have people in my corner that understand the benefits and do not judge me. 

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