Deflated


                                                     Acrylic paint on canvas board


    I have very low energy and get drained from a lot of small things. I have found more medical answers since when i painted this, so it brings me back to this confusing time of not knowing or understanding what is 'wrong' with me. It feels like my energy deflates into a more unsettling version of myself. Sometimes feeling like my kindness and warmth is just a mask for when my patience is running thin, that's when the true me comes out. But I know I never resonate or feel good after my snappy low energy mood. This illustrates the moment i am needing to take a full mental and physical break and to just smoke and exist. 

I also think about my soul within my meat suit. I feel more connected to my thoughts than i do to my physical form. I know my thoughts and intentions but when it comes to looks, its too persuasive to any projections and current trends, looks come and go in fashion but what's on the inside is what will always come out and tell you the truth.



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